The space between

enter the space between
the soft silky layers of being.

read between the lines,
and discover a world
that is hidden deep beneath
the obvious.

look closely at the fine print.
it is never quite black,
and it is never quite white,
it's a dirty illegible grey,
smudged often by
inquisitive fingers.

Spiral Staircase

Irrational
self sabotage
going in vicious
concentric
opposing circles

An irrational need
to fail, to hurt, to hunger
twists around my head
making me dizzy
and nauseous
wanting to vomit
and purge myself
from myself

Irrational
self sabotage
climbing the spiral staircase
two steps at a time
wanting to get to the
bottom as soon
as I can

An irrational fear

that stops

stops dead


I turn around
breathless and scared
the vicious circles stop
the nausea stops
the fear stops
and I start climbing
back up the spiral staircase
right to the top
and I don't look down.

Bubbles of sunshine

Burst bubbles of sunshine
drip slowly to the sounds of
children crying,
sounds of silence
and darkness instead of light

Little bubbles of sunshine
and pockets of love attempt
to float up
up, up and away
clawing their way through
the heavy stigian
clouds of negativity
and self doubt

My bubble is burst.

FLOOF gets his name

Strange Surprises

I knew what you would say
even before you said it...

It was no big surprise
Deep in my heart I knew
But I lied to myself
that it wasn't happening.

To live in a fantasy
A world where I am
the hero,
a world where
I am loved,
where I am
wanted and needed,
so much better
than what is now.

Reality gives a painful bite
It's fangs gouge out my eyes
and give me site
into the real world
A place where
there is no hope
no expectations
and no strange surprises.

Shackles at my feet

Shackles at my feet
My hands chained
behind my back
I am a slave
Bound in metal chains
I am a prisoner

Yet my spirit is free
and it soars high,
high above my
circumstance
and all becasuse
I love you...

Orb

crystal clear
the colour of emeralds
with an endless depth
into the soul
an orb of knowledge
and secrets
beautiful, infinite
wisdom and love
all relected
in your
eyes

It cools to freezing...

Your touch gave me pleasure
Your kiss made me tingle all over
Your words gave me hope
But your lies cut deep into my heart
and your deceit hurt me
You will never know how much
until it's too late
Love begins to wilt
Until it cools to freezing...

Destiny

I've come to the conclusion that I'm not destined to love or be loved.

Me: With and without my make up

Liquid sensuality

Liquid sensuality
Seductively down my throat
Melting decadence
Wanting more

Chocolate...

Back yet again

Back yet again ! About time too... Just haven't had the energy to write anything here for a while... Too damn lazy. And too damn boring! LOL

...a life of excess
excessivley happy
excessively sad
excessively lonley
and excessively unimportant
...a life of excess...
....enough...