Lightning Rod of Negativity
Well, it started out as an ok day I suppose. Then the kak hit the fan. We had our reviews at work . What a frikkin' palava!!!
They just know how to make me feel so special and wanted. My work, they said, was perfect. No question. It was my attitude and general negativity... I was even told that I'm a "lightning rod for negativity"... LOL... And I thought I was the overly dramatic one... Oi Vey!!!
Hmm... Ok, so lately I have been a sour miserable bitch. You try working for 3 and a half years in the same placce, doing crappy work, get no recognition, stuck in a dead end job with no room for growth, internal clients who don't know what they want, continously rescuing people who think we are there to serve them, people who think that because they can tell the difference between turquoise and green they are "designers", work with absolutely no direction from our CD, work like a dog for unobtainable deadlines (but however ALWAYS meet them) and the work you produce is NEVER USED, and then tell me you understand my attitude!!!
Ag, well... Suppose it's about time I tried to sort my life out and decided what I actually wanna do. Dunno what I'm gonna do though. Maybe more graphic design? Maybe makeup? Maybe go to London? Maybe book into Tara? Ag I dunno... This just adds to everything and makes me feel a helliva lot better! ARGHHHHHH!!!!
Went to my friend G's birthday braai last night! Was exhausted when I came home. Thank goodness he stays a few blocks away. Got a lot to do today. Gotta go and get my hair cut - starting to look like Bozo the clown. Gotta get an outfit for the Year End function - at this point I feel like being a total bitch and not going - even though I said I was. Gotta get Christmas pressies for my friends... (And yes, surprising as it is, I do have a few friends)
FX said he'd call me to get together sometime. Naturally he hasn't yet. Why can't he see what's right in front of him? I really know how to pick 'em. One disaster after another. (O how bloody dramatic!!) I've never fought with someone so much - but I love him in my special way... He has made a HUGE impact on my life... Strange how things work out... He is ammazing...
Gotta go now, enough of the self absorbed monologue...
Later,
J :)
They just know how to make me feel so special and wanted. My work, they said, was perfect. No question. It was my attitude and general negativity... I was even told that I'm a "lightning rod for negativity"... LOL... And I thought I was the overly dramatic one... Oi Vey!!!
Hmm... Ok, so lately I have been a sour miserable bitch. You try working for 3 and a half years in the same placce, doing crappy work, get no recognition, stuck in a dead end job with no room for growth, internal clients who don't know what they want, continously rescuing people who think we are there to serve them, people who think that because they can tell the difference between turquoise and green they are "designers", work with absolutely no direction from our CD, work like a dog for unobtainable deadlines (but however ALWAYS meet them) and the work you produce is NEVER USED, and then tell me you understand my attitude!!!
Ag, well... Suppose it's about time I tried to sort my life out and decided what I actually wanna do. Dunno what I'm gonna do though. Maybe more graphic design? Maybe makeup? Maybe go to London? Maybe book into Tara? Ag I dunno... This just adds to everything and makes me feel a helliva lot better! ARGHHHHHH!!!!
Went to my friend G's birthday braai last night! Was exhausted when I came home. Thank goodness he stays a few blocks away. Got a lot to do today. Gotta go and get my hair cut - starting to look like Bozo the clown. Gotta get an outfit for the Year End function - at this point I feel like being a total bitch and not going - even though I said I was. Gotta get Christmas pressies for my friends... (And yes, surprising as it is, I do have a few friends)
FX said he'd call me to get together sometime. Naturally he hasn't yet. Why can't he see what's right in front of him? I really know how to pick 'em. One disaster after another. (O how bloody dramatic!!) I've never fought with someone so much - but I love him in my special way... He has made a HUGE impact on my life... Strange how things work out... He is ammazing...
Gotta go now, enough of the self absorbed monologue...
Later,
J :)
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