Today was better.

Today was better.

Its full moon. I think my moods are dependant on the phases of the moon. Yeah right. I'll try and justify anything about me.

Sometimes I wonder if all this that I'm writing, here and on my contents of my soul website, will ever be read by anybody.

Am I wasting my time?
Writing down my emotions, my feelings and fears.
Writing down about the times I've been hurt and the times I've felt love...

I suppose in the long run or in the greater scheme of things, it actually doesn't make a difference. The people who matter to me have seen what is written in my heart.

This is kinda theraputic. At least I don't have to bug my friends. They also have their own problems and their own struggles. Even though they say that I can talk to them anytime about anything, I still feel like I'm bugging them. I'm too proud. I'm too stubborn. I'm trying too hard to be independant. Trying too hard to be strong. Just trying too damn hard!

I live todaywith whispered promises of tomorrow

and roaring echoes of regret

from yesterday

Ag, well. Time to go. TV is calling - CSI...

Chat later,

J :)